I need new dreams


I have always dreamed of being a mum, in fact all my childhood fantasies had centered on prince charming and babies. But what never crossed my mind once was the thought of being a stay at home mum. My expectation has centered on being a woman juggling career and motherhood, definitely not a tired looking mama covered in baby puree and cereal all day long.
Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful for my lovely baby and I will never trade her for anything in this world, but my perception of motherhood has been greatly altered. Friends, I have been actively searching for a job for 6 months with no success; this has tried my patience so much, it has made me angry at myself, at God and anyone who crosses my path.
Before I got pregnant, I was a perfect career woman who prided herself in her skills of being a journalist and writer. My job was the only thing that managed to boost my self worth, but now that all I do everyday is feeding my adorable child and doing uncountable house chores and binge on soap operas, I ask myself” who am I?.
Am I still the same Tolulope that was so focused, am I still that desirable woman that married almost 2 years ago, am I still that girl that loves God so much. As I ask myself this, I realize that even though I am still the same person,but my dreams have changed. God wants me to dream new dreams, He wants me to take pride in who I am today and bring out positivity. I need to dream new dreams, can I do that?

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