My new hunger


The other day at home on my bed receiving a call from a friend, surrounded by family, I suddenly came to a realization that the word called JOY is not as common as people tend to assume because it is not earthly at all. For a long time , in fact for all I could remember, I have always longed for things that will spring forth joy in me , this pursuit has been one major force that throws me into lots of friendships , relationships, it in a way contributed to my compulsive shopaholic habit.

Joy is one thing everyone desire even the most reprobate, for me it’s that thing in me that I can’t give a name to , that completion that my heart desperately yearns for , sometimes I have this ‘déjà vu ‘ feeling  that I have experienced it before  , then in a flash it dissolves like a heap of ash on the sea. As I receive that call , I try to draw my joy from it , from the calming, baritone voice of my friend , but I couldn’t , even though I was at that minute happy that I am with him on the airwaves , sharing views, right there ,a thought crept  into my subconscious that happiness is far different from joy. It is like day and night, it is not even nearest in meaning like I was taught in my lexicon classes way back, they are opposite, each sourced from different personalities.

While happiness can be bought in any market of today’s world , it can be faked by even the dumbest actors , it can be imagined by anybody and of course be gotten through any means , joy is like a spring that has only one source; GOD .

Years before now, I will sit and think that having a man will in a way complete me , that it will somehow give my life a meaning , how wrong I was to ignorantly commit this blunder , because no matter how much love a man claims to have for me , no matter how much of my body he can reach and touch  , there will always a part of me ,he won’t ever get to ;my Spirit , and if he can’t get there , how can he satisfy its desires. Before you get me wrong , it’s 100% possible that a man loves me , and he makes me deliriously excited and feel all the tingles in this world , but the fact remains that he is not capable of helping me discover my purpose which alone can bring forth joy in me. That essence of life can only be gotten through a Higher Source.

My hunger for joy has made trek the crowdy  road of materialism ,as I get to this point , I can only sigh because am still walking this road, I can only beg God to teach me not to look around and focus on Him for in Him , there is joy or let me write , He’s JOY personified. In this market of ‘ ‘get more ,get more’’ , a lot screams at me saying ‘ ‘more T.M, Hawes & Curtis, Polo shirts ,Nine West, designer goods , latest phones will land me into the country called JOY’’, but am always wrong anytime I make this assumption for it is a foolish thing to think that  any of these termites prone stuff will ever give me that eternal joy.

As an individual that loves to personalize things , I hereby give my definition of this ethereal gift , Joy is being restful in the midst of pain , knowing that trials are normal things God uses to strengthen us and make us super heroes. Joy is being contented when there is nothing that looks like mint in my bank account , and I can dance with my neighbor that bought his 3rd car. Joy is knowing that there are some things I shouldn’t bother trying to unravel for they are mysteries reserved for heaven. Joy is believing in God and thanking  even when my body loses it youthful appeal and bow to diseases, to me that is joy.

This joy am writing about , does it look like anything any human can give me.

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35 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Dapo Sosanya
    Jan 20, 2011 @ 22:06:01

    Definitely not! The last paragraph got me thinking. Joy is not necessarily associated with laughter, it is not a result of any form of biological movement or secretion of certian substances in the body. But can you be joyful without laughing? or is laughing a product of happinness alone?
    It sounds like absolute trust in God to come through for you at every instant. How I wish I can truly “be restful in the midst of pain” or be “contented when there is nothing that looks like mint in my bank account , and I can dance with my neighbor that bought his 3rd car”.
    Lord HELP ME!

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    • Tolu
      Jan 21, 2011 @ 13:40:00

      Bros, you are true , joy is not necessarily associated with laughter , it is a state of being restful and totally reliant on God even the midst of great trials.God will surely help us, that am so sure of.

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  2. Jennifer Abayowa (Jaycee)
    Jan 20, 2011 @ 22:47:10

    I love, love, love this. Happiness and joy are separate, and yes JOY is like a spring with only one source: God. May He continue to teach you how to be filled with His joy. Amen.

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  3. lovely me
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 10:41:49

    I love this! Very insightful!!

    “Joy” is deep…..more of a gift (fruit of the spirit)

    “Joy is being restful in the midst of pain , knowing that trials are normal things God uses to strengthen us and make us super heroes. ” (I love this line)

    May the Lord fill our hearts with joy.

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  4. lovely me
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 10:45:57

    BTW, i love the pictures too.

    Big ups gf.

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  5. seyiakano
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 11:17:31

    yeah..that’s it. JOY springs forth from a deeper well, not based on our latest BBs, or fat accounts…just that peace that God gives unto us at all times… We all should thus seek to desire HIM the giver of Joy than all the Termite prone gadgets.

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    • Tolu
      Jan 21, 2011 @ 13:43:55

      hmmm, seyi , that is so true, joy doesn’t come at all from the latest gadgets but from constant presence with God. we are helped of the Lord.thanks

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  6. Yemisi
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 12:54:32

    Joy really springs from within and not the things we possess or see, It’s a supernatural force…
    Great one sis.

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    • Tolu
      Jan 21, 2011 @ 13:45:26

      Sis, never in this world , will we ever find joy in the things we possess, no matter how hard we try, my prayer is that God will never let us go so that we will continuously draw up joy from Him alone

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  7. raveadams
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 13:54:50

    will be following you.

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  8. Adeola
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 14:25:42

    Maybe am wrong, but joy has different meaning to everyone. According to you
    “Joy is believing in God and thanking even when my body loses it youthful appeal and bow to diseases, to me that is joy,” I agree with you.
    Joy is priceless and can’t be bought even if you are the richest in the world. keep this up. You have inspired someone.

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    • Tolu
      Jan 21, 2011 @ 14:50:42

      thanks, deola, am so glad that you were inspired. God bless you , i love the line ” Joy is priceless and can’t be bought by the richest”

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  9. Bomi Jolly
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 15:40:29

    Thank you sis, for these useful reminders… May our hearts ever be filled with joy, joy, joy. Have a wonderful weekend, God bless!:)!

    ~Bomi

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  10. Buky
    Jan 21, 2011 @ 16:16:11

    great post Tolu, Joy is so important.

    I love the line I can dance with my neighbor that bought his 3rd car. Joy is knowing that there are some things I shouldn’t bother trying to unravel for they are mysteries reserved for heaven”.

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  11. Afolashade Oyedele (SshardeyDiamond)
    Jan 22, 2011 @ 08:54:31

    WOW! Great piece, only JOY can do that trick I’m telling you….Happiness aint gon last long….#WORD

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  12. Aderemi Awe
    Jan 22, 2011 @ 13:59:19

    “Joy is being restful in the midst of pain , knowing that trials are normal things God uses to strengthen us and make us super heroes…This joy am writing about , does it look like anything any human can give me”. Tolulope, this makes a lot of sense. Thanks or sharing. God bless.

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  13. Bukkie
    Jan 22, 2011 @ 14:03:05

    Happiness is more like crack cocaine it makes you high when you are experiencing it but it only last for that moment leaving you yearning for more because it never satisfies. The hunger and the never ending desire it inspires are always on the exponential rise. Joy on the other hand can never be gotten from watching Oprah or following Anthony Robins it can never be sort through yoga, JOY can only be found from one source and that is in Christ. Happiness is real, Joy is also real, but more real is the fleeting nature of happiness and the eternal constancy of joy.
    Good one as always looking forward to more. May Joy never eludes you

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    • Tolu
      Jan 23, 2011 @ 11:45:30

      Bukkie, thanks for your comment , I was really inspired by your description of happiness ‘Like cocaine , leaves you yearning for more’ .how are you doing? hope you are good.

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  14. Maidofheart
    Jan 22, 2011 @ 15:55:04

    An indescribable and yet overwhelmingly satisfying feeling. No wonder only God can give it. Thank you for this beautiful reminder. May we ever be filled with His joy at all times.

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  15. Tolulope Ilesanmi
    Jan 24, 2011 @ 17:42:00

    Great piece, Tolu. Joy, joy, joy. It is a mystery indeed. I think you have stumbled on the key to blessedness, beauty, peace, everlasting youthfulness. I like the “joy is being restful … joy is being contented … joy is knowing … joy is believing” and everything points to God. Isn’t the kingdom of God called “Righteousness, peace and joy in the Holy Ghost?” Also, from the perspective of a man who intends to pursue God to heaven, nothing is more attractive in a woman than her realization of the truth that God is her source, not her man or any other human. Men after God’s heart loooove women after God’s heart. Thank you for writing this and please keep writing. I wrote a piece on Joy, last March, entitled – “How can I not be joyful”. You can check it out here – http://tolulopeilesanmi.blogspot.com/2010/03/how-can-you-be-joyful.html. A related one is “In his presence” – http://tolulopeilesanmi.blogspot.com/2010/11/in-his-presence.html. Also, thanks for visiting my blog. This is Tolulope, proud to be a reader of your blog.

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    • Tolu
      Jan 24, 2011 @ 18:30:10

      Am I not so blessed to discover anther Tolu that can write and making lots of moves for Jesus.Tolu , immediately Sister Buky told me about you , I quickly clicked the link and saw you. I have lots of joy flooding my heart right now, because God is fulfilling His word in us ”In the last days , He shall pour out His Spirit upon all members”, am loving your blog, it’s deep, please let’s keep it up and win souls for Christ. Joy will continuously fill our hearts forever.

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  16. anoda phase
    Jan 25, 2011 @ 03:50:14

    No of course not! No human can give this kind of joy…only our heavenly father can. I find that we sometimes take happiness for joy…but joy is greater than happiness…and you are right, happiness can be faked or even “bought” to an extent, but no, not joy…May we find and keep our joy eternally.

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    • Tolu
      Jan 25, 2011 @ 13:40:20

      Doyin , it is really nice having you on the blog, no human can fill our hearts with such joy, it all comes from God. Amen to your prayers, when is your next post coming out.

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  17. temiville
    Jan 26, 2011 @ 01:01:42

    WOW, Tolu, I don miss gan oh…

    I love love love this post. Its so relateable… Joy is from God only and only He will bless and not add any clause to it.

    Thanks for this!!!

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    • Tolu
      Jan 27, 2011 @ 13:30:36

      Temi, it is wonderful having you again on Rahab memoirs, well done on temiville, you are just brillant, God bless you. Joy is what can help pass through this world and we are still sane.

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  18. segun
    Jan 26, 2011 @ 10:44:41

    hello

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