GOD-The One I will Fear

Since I started this year , I have been sure about one thing in my life , I have been confident that God is too faithful , He can’t fail no matter how late it feels to me. His love is so obvious that I know He can’t let go of me because I am His special girl, this year I have decided on one single thing ;to let go of all the issues that threaten my existence and fear God immensely.

‘Fear of God’, this is a  phrase , I certainly have an idea of  its meaning but sadly not the truth ; ‘Is it cowering behind the shelves whenever I hear His voice; Is it by  playing church every Sunday; Is it by acting nice to everyone I see and not speaking my mind; Is it by crying every time I am in His presence ‘’ , because these used to be what I felt ‘The fear of God is’’.

These days I have been having a change of heart by the Holy Spirit , the fear of God is loving  God wholeheartedly , it is by living every second for Him, it’s by knowing that ‘’from Him comes all good things’’ , it is by thinking about Him every second even before  I take any decision , it is by stopping being desperate.

This is the fear of God , this year I will be 26 years and these years have been full of good and bad times , and it is only worth living because of God. God is not just a religion I picked up from my parents , nor is He Someone I talk to whenever I feel like , He is my life , the reason why I live , the force behind my existence , He’s the only One that I talk to 24 hours a day and doesn’t get tired of listening to me.

He knows my form even before my parents dreamt of meeting , He proposed me as a female to be a wonderful helpmeet for that man that I have not yet met. He knows those nights when sleep take a walk from me , because of the thoughts that  weigh heavily on my heart ,He sees when tears wet my pillows out of sheer exhaustion and He comforts me with His words and sometimes I really feel His strong arms gently rocking me to sleep with His thoughts on my mind.

Year after year , He sees my failed attempts at love , and He sits with me when I use my tears to form a puddle when I didn’t have my way and gently reminds me that ‘True love still exist’ ,I just need to stay still and let Him to finish His work on me , whenever He tells me this , my head literally swells  with joy because I know if 
He says  it ,it is only a matter of time , it  shall come to pass.

In this 26th year of my existence , I sure have lots of dreams , lots of battles , lots of  habits to break away from , lots of places to go to , lots of things to do , but I choose to put them all on hold and fear God immensely because at the end of the day , He’s all that matters.

22 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Dapo Sosanya
    Jan 09, 2011 @ 19:52:28

    So help you God! Jesus told Martha, “One thing is needful” that was what Mary choosed. To be at His feet learning and fellowshiping while all other things fades in comparison to him. Thats when we get to really start living.
    Thumbs up Tolu, keep being real!


    • Tolu
      Jan 09, 2011 @ 20:02:56

      bros mi , thanks for the comment. the fear of God is the utmost , may we all get to the level where it is all about God. are you back


  2. Jennifer Abayowa (Jaycee)
    Jan 09, 2011 @ 22:06:51

    Your posts inspire me so much. Happy 26th in advance. I’m one year plus this year (I can’t believe it, gosh, I’m getting old…nooooooo).


    • Tolu
      Jan 10, 2011 @ 12:47:36

      Jaycee, you are so right for your age, sister, God has a lot in store for you, let’s just stay firm in our walk with Him. i am glad that you are inspired , but I was first inspired by yours , so you are still my mentor.


  3. Buky
    Jan 09, 2011 @ 22:22:31

    Tolu, you are on fire girl. It is the fear of God that leads us to repentance, it is the fear of God that makes us run from sin; just as Joseph ran from potiphar’s wife.
    The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom; Tolu this year you shall be full of godly wisdom.

    I am catching the fire from this post too.


    • Tolu
      Jan 10, 2011 @ 12:49:12

      Sista mi , amen to all your prayers ,thank you for being a worthy example of a godly woman , i pray to God to keep moulding into exactly that image He has of us.


  4. Ayeni Olawale
    Jan 10, 2011 @ 02:14:08

    T baby,God in His infinite mercy will see you through and will surely perfect that which concerns you.What He has in stock for you are that which eyes have not seen,hears have not heard and mouth has neva spoken of.BELIEVE me His plans towards you are GREAT!


    • Tolu
      Jan 10, 2011 @ 12:50:36

      wale ,hmmmmmmm, am so grateful for this , I can’t imagine my primary school captain will be reading this , but He is,thanks.Big Amen to all the prayers.


    Jan 10, 2011 @ 15:58:22

    “Those who know/trsut their God will be strong, and they shall do exploits…” Tolulope, you are one of my favourite writers. This is another great piece; one that points a direction to how live should be lived, by genuinely fearing this God. God bless and keep you.


    • Tolu
      Jan 10, 2011 @ 16:35:01

      my bros , thank God so much for this. it is my deep prayer that we will fnish strong in God, we won’t leave this world without making impact.happy new year.


  6. dsalami
    Jan 11, 2011 @ 13:33:25

    True…… it’d be great if you can translate the last paragraph into a promise or statement of purpose for 2011, frame and hang it, make it you computer background. And hold yourself to account every month. good luck with the year, Ms short and petit.. 🙂


    • Tolu
      Jan 11, 2011 @ 17:04:39

      Dsalami, thanks for this , you know anytime you make a pronouncement about what to do for Christ , the devil violently kicks against it , but thank God for grace.thanking for reading.


  7. anoda phase
    Jan 11, 2011 @ 19:24:38

    Yes…He is all that matters…hang on to Him and let go of the other stuff…well written Tolu. And thanks for coming by mine…


  8. Tolu
    Jan 11, 2011 @ 19:46:06

    Doyin , i had a refreshing time reading your blog, am so happy i found it.thanks for commenting. please hold on to Him together , because He is the only One that makes sense in this scary world.He will help us


  9. thecyruswoman
    Jan 12, 2011 @ 03:19:32

    U r moving in the Spirit,love.Zimbabwe has this same message.Fear of the Lord was my church’s 1st sermon.’As men’s heart fails from fear in these last days.Fear of war,famine,natural disaster,economic loss etc.Fear not what they fear but fear the Lord.And He wil sustain u’.Learn 2 fear God,learn it wel.Speak it in the face of temptation


    • Tolu
      Jan 13, 2011 @ 12:22:46

      cyrus, thanks for reading . my prayer to God is that no matter what happens , His fear will always be in my heart , guarding me against sin and immorality that pervades this present world.


  10. Author:thisisthediaryofanotmadblackwoman
    Jan 13, 2011 @ 19:36:13

    All is well.
    To me, fearing God can also be interpreted as trusting in Him. Resting secure in His Word – knowing that with Him you can sail through life’s storms and attain destiny.
    Well done Tolu. Nice post.


    • Tolu
      Jan 13, 2011 @ 19:51:00

      hello, author , thanks for dropping by , i really appreciate. the fear of God is hating sins wholeheartedly and loving God totally.


  11. Rita
    Feb 04, 2011 @ 21:12:02

    Obviously, I read the posts before this one and I find them so real and inspirational. There is no one who trusts in God that will be put to shame. True love will find you…

    I would like to talk with you offline. Do you mind?


  12. Tolu
    Feb 04, 2011 @ 23:42:53

    Rita,it s really nice of you to read and thank God ,that you re inspired, you can catch me on my yahoo I’d tolucci10@yahoo.com


  13. Adedayo
    Mar 10, 2011 @ 22:52:06

    Tolu, I love dis. Dere’s hope 4 our generation cos righteousness shall prevail in Nigeria. Lets do more.

    Yes, U CAN!!!


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